Slacked around my neighborhood for the whole night and I thought it was great to do this once a while to get certain emotions tone down. Guess it worked (:

Nothing special today but contacted with some friends and glad they are doing fine. Its our 21st year this year and everyone is spending their birthday and making it really happen with loads of effort. What's mine, I wonder. Well, I'm not really in to celebrate my own birthday, hope it's not weird thing.

Okay, one of my friend did a project, a very nice video of our secondary school times. Touching seh~ haha, enjoy.

http://www.digitalhomelands.sg/player.php?id=55

Currently at Hui Qi's house and they are playing mah jong, together with Wei Liang, Vincent, Avis, Kok Boon(sleeping) and Hui Qi of course. I'm not in to gambling, so I can't, or say, don't know how to play that. Tried a few times, but yea, not my cup of tea. I should say it's a socializing game if you look at it positively, or perhaps, every "gambling games".

Before coming to Hui Qi's house, I was from training, and I thought something unbearable happened. I saw bias-ness and I know I'm gonna get flamed for saying this, but this was what I see. Yea, understandings should be the word and did something which I've never done before. What done is done, so be it.

Bored watching them playing so borrowed Hui Qi's laptop and did a couple of music searching online. Came across great singers like the Davids, yea DavidS. Both David Archuleta and David Cook from American Idol Idol Season 7 were really great. Hopefully to see them both competing each other in the finals. Well, both of them have different kind of voice and style, and I shall not comment them much, because I'm ain't no professional judge (; just to save myself from being flamed. Anyways, just search your way through at youtube and I'm sure you will love it, provided if you do know how to appreciate them.

Actually, had intention of putting up a song up for my blog, and I thought I found the perfect song. Real perfect (: Sadly I'm still a newbie for stuff like this. Kok Boon should be the one helping me with this but he is like dead sleeping -.-

Alright, before I put up the song, here is the tittle and lyrics (: everyone should know this song though.

Bleeding Love by Leona Lewis

Closed off from love
I didn’t need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you’re frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone’s looking round
Thinking I’m going crazy

But I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing’s greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I’m going crazy, maybe, maybe

But I don’t care what they say

I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

And it’s draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I’ll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love

Lyrics from haoting.com

somehow this song saddens me a lot
memories keep flashing back though not long ago
it does take two hands to clap
no one is at fault which is what I see
it's a stepping stone
there is a lot for me to understand you
I know your shadow is still in my life
it's my last grab
for all the wrongs I could've done
I'm sorry



I miss you...

Met up a good friend of mine today and we spoke a lot, mentioned about certain stuff which I find that it's good to share with.

 

Both of us had similar relationship problem but it seems that mine is slightly more complicated, so his say was about comprising – to either do it or not. So there is a certain limit which you should go, giving too much might end up not revealing your true self. At least being your true self let the other party knows what kind of person exactly you are, and not after in to a relationship and show otherwise personality. It's deceiving I guess. As the compromising I'm mentioning is accepting, and it's either the ones you want or not. That's why a limit should be there.

 

After listening to what he said, some how I feel more relaxed, thanks man. Haha~

 

Maintaining is the hardest process in a relationship I guess, you may start and end things easily but what's in the middle is the most important thing and it's like a test.

 

Okay I have to admit I'm a super newbie in this. As long as I know what I'm doing, everything should be fine ba…

 

*Tu me manques

SHAGGERED! Insufficient rest and for the whole day I went work in the morning and played basketball in the evening time.

Was quite pissed off at work when I just received my new schedule and it was not according to what I had given. Where is the management and welfare for your part-timers?

Previous night went to watch a movie, "the hottie and naughty"? if I still remember the title correctly, it was hilarious and I recommend everyone to watch it, provided you are not the one that's in to a good storyline, seriously it has almost none.

Basketball matches coming up again, school projects pilling up, modules getting tougher, wooo~ stress pilling up as well, year 3 sux. I've got modules like proteomics and genomics and I think they will be the ones that will pull my GPA down like f**k. My GPA is already like urm, nicer to put it, around the border, *cough cough*. No choice, biomedical science general track, like neither here nor there.

Okay my house got one crazy cat, likes to leap in and out of the house, jump up and down the windows, like playing suicide game. She really got all of us in our nerves and they do shout like one crazy fella. My dad always ask it to sit, "SIT SIT SIT". Eh she is not a dog lor, it's like a duck talking to a chicken. Once a while my elder Sis will be like pms and shouting around the house like another crazy fella, tearing the house like that. Okay I admit I don't really like them. Lalalala~

It's late and I still have numerous works undone. Some said year 3 is the year that changes a person, I think it's working and I'm seeing it. Haha, maybe that's what makes poly life unforgettable?

Met up with my old colleague recently and it was the usual "long time no see" chat, about the past and future. Not only her, it will be the same even with my old secondary school friends. 1 more year in RP, hopefully, and down the road the same scenario will happen again. Everyone shall lead their own life and blah blah blah~

Received my ns enlistment letter and it's like less than 2 months from now, 12 Jun 2008, woah! I'll still be in the mid of schooling if the differment didn't work. Why? I've talked to the customer care consultant and they gave me different information. It was mentioned that I cannot do any differment after the age of 21,counted as year basis, which stunted me. Still, I have to wait for certification of student status from the school by next week and head down to CMPB. The journey is long and suky.

Army life – chiong ah~ and chiong for 2 years. No office position for me please, no clerk or what. This means no injuries from basketball for the rest of 1 year before I get enlisted again, how possible?

At the moment I just want to play hard, study hard and work hard. Monday, Wednesday and weekends work, Tuesday, Thursday and Friday basketball trainings. Whole of weekdays studying and fyp project, provided if I'm going to school. PP coming up, woo busy busy~

Haha after saying so much, I'm still a slacker [:

*I'm missing someone siak, heh heh. Lets' meet up soon again!

Cab home and took 2hrs of nap, and off to school again. It was very dreadful going to school, even though I took a cab, again.

 

Met up with some of the guys and we have to set up our booth for interest group, for the freshmen to sign up for trials, which I find it very redundant but just to be fair to everyone. Hurried off to FYP meeting after setting up the booth and it was not for long and I left for work, eventually.

 

3.40, as I sat down on the bench, called my work place and decided not to work. Until 4.10, I took bus home.

 

Reached my destination, settled down to have a meal and made myself spend all my money away.

 

I'm like dreading my day, or I'm being dreaded?

 

It's like reading a story book, I would read word by word, understand each word, and sometimes reading out loud. I would go back to the previous paragraph if I'm still unsure. I shall not judge the quality of content unless I finished reading the whole book and first impression matters because it drives the motivation to finish it. No matter what book I'm holding, every page to me seems precious and I will find all ways to maintain the cover page. Definitely I will put my emotions inside and it's like making me a reality of the story.

 

Random thoughts…

 

Mou lipis, agapi mou

New school semester, new beginning, new classmates, new environment and a new life for myself. Chances are given & hopefully I don't waste it again.

School trainings resumed and our IG has been promoted to one of the core sports in school and was given prioritize to certain authorities. Sounds cool but its additional stress and I believe some of us have faith in it yea?

*Sign*

It seems that I've messed up everything and you did mean well. Read the message over & over again to finally realize it. I'm sorry, though you said its fine but I doubt so... I was dumb ):