Fear this not anymore but here comes another one.

It has reach to a point that I have to make another progression of finding a job flexible enough to fit my lifestyle. Where on earth can I get such job other than F&B. So yes, I have to be back to that line again though I'm hoping for something more refreshing.

In my mind, there is this cafe cum restaurant cum salon that seems appealing to me in terms of environment. Through the years, I've been in a fast paced environment, by far it doesn't seem so from my visits. Personally I find it tiring to learn new things all over again, but looking at the possibly of myself to learn to make desserts, it's not too bad after all.

Having said so, hopefully things are smooth for me. Gauging this as a two months thing.

Fear for tomorrow...

BC:90
SPIN:12
BP:34
BB:8
BA:6
G&J:1
BJ:4
BOOTCAMP:2
STEP I:1

Am pretty worn out from classes today, stating the fact that I've put in lots of effort. I believe it's all in my blood that I shall be mold for anything related to fitness.

Another fact is that I'm so worn out to think, I better save the better for the next.

BC:88
SPIN:12
BP:34
BB:8
BA:6
G&J:1
BJ:4
BOOTCAMP:2
STEP I:1

At the recent has been tracking my finance, it's like doing something with no tail, bad.

BC:85
SPIN:12
BP:34
BB:8
BA:5
G&J:1
BJ:4
BOOTCAMP:2
STEP I:1

It has come to a point when I feel worn out after 2 hours of class, 1 BP following by 1 BC. Though this feeling only comes upon the third class months back, I'm more satisfied with this result as I'm working more effectively on the core muscles. I should say this is a progress.

For today's BP, I feel ready for the next level for some parts & loaded up the weights, per side, 15kg for squats and 10kg for chest. Tough but got through them, chest was very shaky for me. Biceps and triceps most probably I'll load up a Kg more. Ah gong was very nice enough to motivate me along the way & felt like a companion. Looking forward to do pump with him again.

Here comes BC & I have a new habit of keeping track of time. To check the level of tiredness, which to date it comes at around 20mins later. For the rest of 40mins it's really about endurance and I'll check myself more at the mirror. I should say the mental strength has to step in & constantly ask to maintain myself in terms of postures, techniques & strength. My nature is setting expectations for myself especially when I have passion or affections over matters.

What ever I have attained from the things I've done, is just another leading future. Am sure of the things, effort & decision I've made by far. Everyone has a weakness however, for mine is relationship & I find it darn stupid. Still, it's something so natural and I've yet to find an answer to convince myself that it's useless. Having said so, definitely someone has tuned on this weakness of mine.

I'm coming to a level which I can't afford to make much mistakes already or I'll just be taking another wrong step again. The fact others deem me as young & still able to take chances, however I deem myself as too old for risks. The more I look back, the more I see the competitive generations rising, I just have to stay focus.

Weird to say I feel the stress coming up already.

Yes, I do find the joy in solitary moments of chilling out, but there is a huge price to pay definitely.

BC:81
SPIN:12
BP:33
BB:8
BA:5
G&J:1
BJ:4
BOOTCAMP:2
STEP I:1